"Ask yourself what makes you come alive, and go do that, because what the world needs is people who have come alive." -John Eldredge
I want to get married as soon as possible. As in, at the end of college or immediately after college, actually if God permits.. even in the middle of college. I don't care. I just want to get married. <3 On my honeymoon, my man and i will get matching tattoos. Heck yes.
I want to move to an adventurous state.. preferrably down south.. my dream is Tennessee, but there are several other places that would be just as beautiful.
I want to live in a town full of friendly people, opportunities, and fun. I want to earn my Masters degree in accounting, so i want to be a CPA or maybe an investigative auditor, and possibly have some catering experience for an on the side job for fun.
I want three kids: two boys and a girl, no specific order preferred. More than one girl would be a whole bunch of drama and door-slamming. I will get my babies' names tattood somewhere on me haha.
All of my kids will have to do 20 minutes of reading a day until they are in middle school, and i will try to get them involved in an instrument, sport, or scouts club- whatever makes them happy. They need an activity to keep them growing and entertained.
I will raise my boys to be charming, gentlemen. I hope that i will successfully get them to participate in a cotillion (American style) for lessons on proper etiquette and dance lessons when they are young teens. I hope they are both spitting images of their father.. with a little bit of me too (;
I know for a fact that i will struggle a little bit if my daughter is NOT a girly-girl. It will be very humbling to raise someone who hates pink and refuses to be a Debutante. The moment she's born I'm buying her the book Captivating by Stasi Eldredge with a letter inside to open on her 14th birthday. I hope she looks just like me and has a personality like her dad's.. in a feminine way. I hope my husband keeps a gun to scare off her boyfriends... just so she'll look back on that and feel special and sacred... and a quick way to filter out jerks. College will be a requirement in my house... unless my son or daughter sincerely (a word not used lightly) thinks God says otherwise. I hope atleast one of my kids marries his or her high school sweetheart... so adorable.
My husband will be my children's inspiration. My daughter will learn to choose the right man from her dad's godly example. My sons will imitate their dad's humilty and ways of treatin' a lady. My kids will feel protected because of their father's respectable authority. Anything daddy says will be trusted and right. I wouldn't marry a man who was even 5% close to being that amazing.. he must be all of that. That kind of expectation sounds difficult to find, but trust me, girls, there are men in this world who are everything and more than you could imagine. And if i never find him, and i'm not supposed to get married.. i guess i'll just join the CIA then. Anyways..
With this economy, a stay at home mom is nearly impossible to be... one income is not very easy to live on. I will be home as much as possible for my babies. I will cook them the best dang food they've ever eaten, i will show them the beauty of art in all forms, I will raise them to love Jesus and to serve even the lowest of the low, and i will teach them with Conservative morals (My daughter will join my anti-feminist movement bandwagon). Once my kids are not so little.. maybe in elementary school.. and if God calls me to.. i want to adopt a baby. I want to give someone a home who never would've thought they'd have one.
My house will have a beautiful garden no doubt. Hopefully a jacuzzi for even the cold, winter nights. My kids will play in the yard and feel 110% safe. Hopefully my husband will have a Harley, so we can have some amazing date nights. Traditions that my family has i will pass down. Pizza night once a week.. that will never die. My kids will have a very fond appreciation for pizza.. and popcorn because of how my dad is. I will work for my kids and my sisters' kids.. and even my cousins' kids to have friendships. There's nothing as special as family reunions and good times with my cousins- my kids will quicky learn that too. Also, i will NOT drive a van. That is a goal i have always had. I will not set foot in one.. unless completely necessary. I like SUVs, Jeep Cherokees, and Durangos. I will stay young through that, and many other things.. like not letting my gray hair show until i have grandchildren. Oh, and once my grandkids are all born.. i will get my own Harley and be that kind of grandma. Oh, and did i mention tattoos?
"Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4 <3
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Kiddos
“And anyone who welcomes a little child like this on my behalf is welcoming me. But if you cause one of these little ones who trusts in me to fall into sin, it would be better for you to have a large millstone tied around your neck and be drowned in the depths of the sea." Matthew 18:5-6
Almost every weekday i babysit for a family in Fishers from 3:45-6pm, and i love it. This is a drastic change to how i would've felt about watching a child in the previous few years. I always thought most children were cute, innocent things, i always had the desire to have my own someday, and i always fell in love with close friends' and family members' babies, but thinking of children in general used to... annoy me and sometimes disgust me. Hence, the reason i never went to Camp Allendale at my church unless i were to be directly asked to help.
Now, my perspective has completely changed, and looking back i know just when that transition started happening. In November 2009, one of my best friends' parents adopted 3 beautiful Colombian kids into their family. Watching the kids change, my best friend Eden change, and the family grow in a different way was very inspirational. Seeing those kids go from a hard life in Colombia.. to having full tummies and a loving family. To hear them singing in church and lifting their hands, and saying "Glory to God" over and over again to the tune of Steve Fee's song, really moved me.
I never wanted to adopt.. had no desire to welcome strangers into my home and family.. but now i hope God blesses me with such an opportunity.
Although the kids i babysit can get a little... crazy (sometimes) i still love them. This new job is a ministry, and i pray that God will use me to reach out to them. They need Jesus so much. There mom is very sweet, and she seems to be involved with a church a little bit, but i think it's very hard for her to go because she is a single mother and pharmacist who needs more time with the kids. Something i struggle with is not crossing the line between Babysitter and Mom. The minute i tell the boy to do something he doesn't like... he gets out his cellphone and calls his mom. With the girls, one will either cry or obey... and the other will pretend not to hear me and obey if i get to raising my voice. Sometimes, this job takes a lot of patience, but these precious kids mean well.
I need a lot of prayer for reaching out to them. If anyone has any suggestions- please share!
Right now, we're working on actually doing homework and not eating snacks past 5... hoping to soon get some chores in there too. What i would really like is to talk to these kids about God in a way that keeps them interested and open. I want to reach out to them. Hopefully, i can get the mom to take them to Camp Allendale.. maybe i can be a counselor? We will see where the Lord leads. Right now, prayers are so much appreciated!
If any mother is reading this and needs a babysitter.. talk to me. I officially love babysitting. (:
Now, my perspective has completely changed, and looking back i know just when that transition started happening. In November 2009, one of my best friends' parents adopted 3 beautiful Colombian kids into their family. Watching the kids change, my best friend Eden change, and the family grow in a different way was very inspirational. Seeing those kids go from a hard life in Colombia.. to having full tummies and a loving family. To hear them singing in church and lifting their hands, and saying "Glory to God" over and over again to the tune of Steve Fee's song, really moved me.
I never wanted to adopt.. had no desire to welcome strangers into my home and family.. but now i hope God blesses me with such an opportunity.
Although the kids i babysit can get a little... crazy (sometimes) i still love them. This new job is a ministry, and i pray that God will use me to reach out to them. They need Jesus so much. There mom is very sweet, and she seems to be involved with a church a little bit, but i think it's very hard for her to go because she is a single mother and pharmacist who needs more time with the kids. Something i struggle with is not crossing the line between Babysitter and Mom. The minute i tell the boy to do something he doesn't like... he gets out his cellphone and calls his mom. With the girls, one will either cry or obey... and the other will pretend not to hear me and obey if i get to raising my voice. Sometimes, this job takes a lot of patience, but these precious kids mean well.
I need a lot of prayer for reaching out to them. If anyone has any suggestions- please share!
Right now, we're working on actually doing homework and not eating snacks past 5... hoping to soon get some chores in there too. What i would really like is to talk to these kids about God in a way that keeps them interested and open. I want to reach out to them. Hopefully, i can get the mom to take them to Camp Allendale.. maybe i can be a counselor? We will see where the Lord leads. Right now, prayers are so much appreciated!
If any mother is reading this and needs a babysitter.. talk to me. I officially love babysitting. (:
Sunday, November 7, 2010
"I've used my lungs for everything but breathing", so pray.
"You have these problems because you need the gifts they carry within." -Anonymous
We all have our own issues and situations and often times feel that we can't push through them.
Sometimes these problems look over-bearing. The weight of them seems too big to take on anymore,
and we want to either give in to them.. or throw our very own pity-party and "try" to fix them eventually.
I feel like my personal problems seem too heavy when i lack time in the Word or when i make myself
so busy that my God time isn't as big of a priority as it should be.
There are times that my faith in what God can do is limitless.. and then when i'm blah, i start questioning
things and worrying about things that will never be in my control.
When everything in me is aligned with the Lord... when i daily cry out for my desires to match His, for the fruits of the Spirit, and for humility i stop worrying and i TRUST Him so much more. I pray more for others... even those that can sometimes get on my nerves or are rubbing me the wrong way.
When the enemy sees that i am just an inch away from falling... he will start tempting me and trying to get a toe hold of me.. so that he can eventually get my foot.. then my leg.. and then all of me... The enemy works in quiet, sneaky ways... a little bit at a time, so that before you know it, he has you. That's his trick. The farther you are from God, the more you don't realize the Spiritual attack.
This is what happens with me: For some reason, the enemy tries to use my perspective of people to get me.
When i'm lacking God time, satan will get one innocent person to get under my skin just a little bit. For awhile i will just ignore it and not really think much of it. The less time i have with God, the more that person will annoy me. Then, the enemy will get someone a little closer to me to annoy me, and i'll start getting a little bothered by them. Then he will get someone who has caused wounds in my past to stick out to me in a negative way constantly... which will bring past feelings and anger to push to awaken from the grave just a little bit. Then, before i know it, i'm concerned about myself and my feelings. I'm not sure why the enemy uses people to try to get me to fall.. maybe because i'm a people person sometimes and an introvert the rest of the time.
On the other hand, when i'm close to God, as soon as someone annoys me i pray for them immediately because i feel like God has them stand out to me as a way to tell me they need prayer. And for that person or people that have caused me wounds who stick out, i'm praying for them a lot and asking God to change them.
I know someone who was confusing me and frustrating me for awhile about their life and relationship with God... then a few months later i hear they're going through something big and all i did was sit there questioning them and getting frustrated by them when i should've used the indications given that something weird was happening as a sign to pray for them. It doesn't hurt to pray.. it's worth the effort.
Without God we have no wisdom, so without God we don't know what's best for us and we don't see our own mistakes. That's so obvious, but sometimes being a Christian and referring that back to ourselves, we forget. We will never understand everything that happens or why things happen, but through it all God's promises remain.
The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom Proverbs 9:10
"Give your burdens to the Lord, and he will take care of you. He will not permit the godly to slip and fall" Psalms 55:22
When i finally see myself being stupid and worldly, i just pray. Sometimes prayer is over-complicated. God can do anything, remember? I ask him to make me a better person in the areas that i am weak, and to change my thoughts so they don't dare become words or actions. We are not called to be perfect, but to strive to be more like Him.
*I feel like i already blogged about prayer.. but here it is again. Have Problems? Pray!
We all have our own issues and situations and often times feel that we can't push through them.
Sometimes these problems look over-bearing. The weight of them seems too big to take on anymore,
and we want to either give in to them.. or throw our very own pity-party and "try" to fix them eventually.
I feel like my personal problems seem too heavy when i lack time in the Word or when i make myself
so busy that my God time isn't as big of a priority as it should be.
There are times that my faith in what God can do is limitless.. and then when i'm blah, i start questioning
things and worrying about things that will never be in my control.
When everything in me is aligned with the Lord... when i daily cry out for my desires to match His, for the fruits of the Spirit, and for humility i stop worrying and i TRUST Him so much more. I pray more for others... even those that can sometimes get on my nerves or are rubbing me the wrong way.
When the enemy sees that i am just an inch away from falling... he will start tempting me and trying to get a toe hold of me.. so that he can eventually get my foot.. then my leg.. and then all of me... The enemy works in quiet, sneaky ways... a little bit at a time, so that before you know it, he has you. That's his trick. The farther you are from God, the more you don't realize the Spiritual attack.
This is what happens with me: For some reason, the enemy tries to use my perspective of people to get me.
When i'm lacking God time, satan will get one innocent person to get under my skin just a little bit. For awhile i will just ignore it and not really think much of it. The less time i have with God, the more that person will annoy me. Then, the enemy will get someone a little closer to me to annoy me, and i'll start getting a little bothered by them. Then he will get someone who has caused wounds in my past to stick out to me in a negative way constantly... which will bring past feelings and anger to push to awaken from the grave just a little bit. Then, before i know it, i'm concerned about myself and my feelings. I'm not sure why the enemy uses people to try to get me to fall.. maybe because i'm a people person sometimes and an introvert the rest of the time.
On the other hand, when i'm close to God, as soon as someone annoys me i pray for them immediately because i feel like God has them stand out to me as a way to tell me they need prayer. And for that person or people that have caused me wounds who stick out, i'm praying for them a lot and asking God to change them.
I know someone who was confusing me and frustrating me for awhile about their life and relationship with God... then a few months later i hear they're going through something big and all i did was sit there questioning them and getting frustrated by them when i should've used the indications given that something weird was happening as a sign to pray for them. It doesn't hurt to pray.. it's worth the effort.
Without God we have no wisdom, so without God we don't know what's best for us and we don't see our own mistakes. That's so obvious, but sometimes being a Christian and referring that back to ourselves, we forget. We will never understand everything that happens or why things happen, but through it all God's promises remain.
The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom Proverbs 9:10
"Give your burdens to the Lord, and he will take care of you. He will not permit the godly to slip and fall" Psalms 55:22
When i finally see myself being stupid and worldly, i just pray. Sometimes prayer is over-complicated. God can do anything, remember? I ask him to make me a better person in the areas that i am weak, and to change my thoughts so they don't dare become words or actions. We are not called to be perfect, but to strive to be more like Him.
*I feel like i already blogged about prayer.. but here it is again. Have Problems? Pray!
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