Friday, June 25, 2010

Opening Some Doors and Closing Others




My God is awesome and i love Him. Two days ago i decided what my major is. It's obviously (probably) going to be temporary since people seem to change majors all the time, but this is good for now.
Oh, and when i said major, i mean majors. Yes, the plan (FOR NOW) is to double major for Accounting and Interior Decorating. Woohoo! Passion mixed with gifted-ness. Honestly, i chose to double maj because i couldn't decide between the two. Accounting ensures a job because of the constant need for an accountant even in a bad ecnonmy and i'm good at math, whereas interior decorating is what i love and could get really good at. When i walk into other people's homes i get inspired.. most of my favorite stores are places like Kirklands & Z-Gallerie. It's love <3 

My Grandpa's condition is worsening. He can't eat very easily because it hurts to swallow, and drinking makes him swell up. He gets 4ish Liters of fluid removed from his daily. My mom went to visit him Tuesday, Jun 15th and is staying two more weeks than originally planned. My grandpa, grandma, mom & her siblings have been at the top of my prayer list.
I got to model for Meyer Photography's Rock the Dress. It was so much fun and these people are doing my senior pictures. I am also going to be a Senior rep for them as well. They are an awesome couple and they're so sweet! I'm hoping to get more chances to model and to join a modeling agency to get more experience. I am currently working on my modeling portfolio and hopefully i'm doing it right. I am sending a few apps to different agencies and we'll see where God takes this.


 Right now i'm re-reading Captivating and reading Wild at Heart for the first time. These books are amazing. Everyone i talk to i try to get them to read these books. I have a feeling that God is calling me in this type of ministry with friends.. more on that later once i figure it all out. For now, God has called me to start a small group that will soon be studying these books. He brought it into my heart back in February when i first read the book and now it's happening. I can't wait!

I finally finished the book Lord Foulgrin's Letters after about a month and a half. The book is basically an easier version of Screwtape Letters, and i plan to read that one later. If you don't get what these two books are about-- basically demons write letters back and forth to try to keep a person from God. In turn, the book shows what happens after each letter. They're both very eye-opening and interesting, and in my opinion, very accurate. Through this book i've seen where i've been tempted and how i've been appealed to things. It's scary if you don't believe in demons and the devil, and i know that our worldly society tells us to either completely blow off any idea of any evil like that.. or to be completely obsessed or captured by the evil. Both aren't good.

CIY is coming in a couple of weeks and i am so ready! I'll be praying for everyone's hearts to be prepared until then.

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Everything Happens For A Reason

There is a lot of stuff going on in my life right now, and i'm being hit with a lot at once.
I'm trying to stay calm through all of this and i really need prayer.
I would really appreciate it if you could pray for the salvation of my favorite grandfather who is dying from cancer. I'm sorry this update is so cut short and without detail but one day i will be more specific. Trying to stay strong.

Monday, May 31, 2010

no one left

everyone is leaving :(

and yes i'm completely aware that God will never leave.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Sometimes The Answers Are So Simple and Obvious



"Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance."
1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Oh, Goodie..



"As for the rest of you, dear brothers and sisters, never get tired of doing good." 2 Thessalonians 3:13

Along with the whole "WWJD?" saying/reminder ('What would Jesus do?' for those of you unfamiliar) lately i have been struggling with putting those two things into practice.

I haven't been struggling to forget those things in big situations, but in little ways like my thoughts and motives (Which in a sense can both grow to be bigger issues).

The other day i was.. maybe i can say criticized.. or maybe it wasn't critical, but more of something that stuck out to a couple of people that i am a "goody goody", well-behaved little girl. whatever the term.
When that was said.. i'm doubt these people meant it in this light.. but i took it in a bad way. An example would be, "You want a tattoo?.. that seems a little low for you.. it doesnt seem like you at all". Something like that. I love these people to death, and i hold nothing against them.. but my reaction stuck out to me because i was a little defensive.

And now i think back and wonder WHY SHOULD I BE? It should be an honor that these people view me in that light. I want to grow to be a godly woman every day. Why be ashamed?

Maybe the tone i got from them saying that made me feel a little sad because of the stereotypical "good christian girl that wouldn't pierce her ears or hurt a fly" label, which is a completely awful way to view anyone who loves the Lord, and i didn't want to be viewed that way.

i am just trying to clean up how i react to those kinds of things because they are compliments in the long run.
my reaction in my head and aloud was offensive and disrespectful to God. i am glad these people said this to me so i can check myself. Even though it can be hard, it's an honor when the Lord reveals things about you that need a good fixing.. that way we can better ourselves.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

It All Looks Smooth From Here



Time to rebirth my artistic ability. After 5 years of a break, I'm ready to live again.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Junior Prom




Prom was amazing and my date was my best friend.

Kings Island the next day was crazy fun and I was with some great people.

I definitely had one of the best weekends of my life.
Nope.. you don't get details... you'll have to ask i guess ;)
The end. :)